I’m trying to write a life-changing blog…
Its not working. I could just post a youtube to get across my thoughts of the day, but nah… that’s too easy. I reserve the right to do that at the end of what is likely about to turn into ramblings.
The HippyMom blog theme right now is “chance.” I keep thinking about how predictable life has become, which I’m sure has its roots in my four children, each with special needs. There was once a time when I didn’t think twice about taking a chance on something, somebody or somewhere new. Now, in my newly acknowledged Virgo style, I look at things from all sides and make an educated decision about what is best for me, for my family… for the world (because, while I’m not exactly spontaneous anymore, I am delusional). For the most part, I am okay with being practical. I do miss the days where life was a bit more exciting, when my BFF and I drove from OKC to Dallas at 100MPH, windows open, shirts off, with, “Tag! You’re it!” written on the back glass of my little blue Geo. Those were the days, right Sapphire? 
This is probably why I’m so drawn to female communities -- because, as much as I abhor the drama, it feeds my need for excitement when I’m not able to find excitement in the real world… and women are fascinating, if you really get the chance to watch them. Scary, but amazing. Somehow, driving around topless now seems unnecessary and, well, creepy, considering I drive a mini-van with just enough room for my family and maybe some snacks. Painful drama is bad, though. The excitement of a new baby named after me… that’s priceless 
Someone once told me that I was driven by excitement and being in the moment of the intoxicating spin of “fuck it all!” Well, it wasn’t said quite that eloquently, but the person had a point. I dig the excitement. I love to try new things. I need a constant flow of activity to keep me motivated in the “now.” The problem, however, is that eventually, the “new” starts to fade and I’m again stuck in that frustrating moment of… blah. I’ve sat here all morning, in the blah, trying to come up with a blog to meet my practical goal of writing something decent once a week. I can’t do anything else until its done. Obviously, my excitement factor this week has been pretty low.
Astrologically, I know where this comes from, thanks to a hippy chick I know. Not that I’ve been dwelling on it for the past few days or anything *CoughCough-Venus-in-Leo-CoughCough* It explains the rock star I want to be, the draw of belly dancing, the creative pundit I see myself as, and the creation of all of the communities I’ve found myself involved within. So, that’s where I take my chances. I can always discharge the dye from a screwed up shirt and start over with a new design, or rebuild a database if it crashes… as long as it enhances my practicality but doesn’t lead me into someplace chancy.
Thus ends my self-serving, not-so-life-changing-but-life-affirming blog. Go Melia! (the baby, not me)
I’m not angry, I’m just saying
Sometimes goodbye is a second chance
Tags: astrology, Friends of Melia, today in melialand, women, youtube
June 17th, 2009 at 8:54 pm
the good thing is, you get to choose as little or as much drama as you want without losing yourself or your sense of identity in the process. and that’s a very cool thing. and maybe that lil venus will enlighten you: you’re a rock star–better embrace it.
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June 20th, 2009 at 10:48 am
You rock as far as I’m concerned, so you are already a rock star. Nice how we get so many choices in life, isn’t it?:)
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